It was awesome to sleep in until 10:30am. Ruth had stayed up late since I am kind of a lax parent when Amy is at work. I had stayed up to watch the Syracuse-UConn game that went to 6 overtimes. Shortly after that, Amy returned home from her shift. We all appreciated the sleeping in during this rainy morning. We went to IHOP for lunch, picked up my dry cleaning, and bought me a more professional looking man-purse to carry my laptop and papers in. I figure that now I will be attending more departmental and important meetings, I should look more respectable thus the dressy clothes and bag. We returned home and watched the latest "The Office" episode which was funny as usual. It was then time for me to depart for work. I waved goodbye to Amy and Ruth. They decided to stand by the big window in the living room to wave bye-bye to me as my car drove by. I wish I had slowed down a little more to clearly wave back but there was a car behind me. Next time I'll pull over, and here is the reason why. When I approached the hospital, Amy called to tell me that Ruth had fallen asleep for her nap. Before that, Amy had handed Ruth some books and went to get her milk. When she looked back, the books were on the living room table, and Ruth had walked off. Amy found Ruth by that window saying, "Bye, Bye, Dada." If I could go back in time and witness something that I had missed, this would be on the top of the list. Hearing this story almost (I said almost) brought tears to my eyes, and it definitely took my breathe away. I was very touched. It makes me feel so special and blessed that God has given me such a wonderful daughter who loves me. I wonder how God feels when we tell him that we love Him. Everytime we pray, sing praises, and worship Him, I wonder how that affects Him.
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Romans 9:20 "But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?'" Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?"
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I ask why and have regrets many times. I want to be famous, powerful, admired, rich, successful, and other self-glorifying adjectives. However, it doesn't matter what I want. It is God's will because He is in control and the Creator. With today's story of Ruth saying bye-bye at the window after I had left, nothing in my life has made me feel so good. This is without exaggeration. Nothing has ever made me feel this way. No matter how famous, powerful, admired, wealthy, or successful I could ever become, it would not have matched my feeling right now of how Ruth thinks of me or loves me at this young age. My goals have been reinforced all of a sudden. Obviously, number one is to glorify God with everything I do. My second priority is to love my family with all of my heart. That includes Ruth and the twins who are on the way. I want to tell Amy that I love her more often and show it. I want to love my mom, dad, Ben, and D.J. by praying constantly for their salvation so that they will be in heaven for all of eternity. Thank You, Lord, for blessing me with a daughter that loves me. I want to love You as much as she loves me in the same pure and unquestionable manner.
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